hey my wonderful girl friends..

i have something to tell you guys...

there is a girl i have known for nearly a year who has been anorexic all her life and she is abour 24,,,,she was my idol and she knew that she was my idol.....but she was worried for me she didnt want me to live the hell she is in....

she has been in hospital in and out non stop and she says it was hell and lost everyhting...she thinks that she made me ed...but she didnt i decided to and now i decide not to be like this...

i was on msn about 10minutes ago and she has told me that she had recovered and now she wanted me to to...because she will be guilty forever and i will live in the worst conditions and so after a long talk i have made up my mind and now i am her to say that i am going to stop doing this to myself and move on in life,,,,

i will still be losing weight to my goal weight but in the smart way....

im sorry i have to leave like this and i will alwyas support my ana friends but in a different way from the way i did...

please understand i will miss all the support i had,,,,tomorrow i will write you all a thankyou card to all you angels...

please understand that i am leaving like this,,,

i love you...and i hope you guys say safe and healthy and make the bestest choices....cause its only a one chance thing...

love gracie

hey ya'll....lol how have you girlies been?? well im on my second day of a fruit fast...well it not really...cause ....well it is,,,but i drink coffee like once every third day....to make me feel....good?? haha okies...

Todays INTAKE

i didnt have a meal but throughout the day i ate 4 bites of apple and one bit of pear and 2 bites of apricot and ......a botttle of strong green yea *yukie!!* and a cup of fibre drink....    and that is al...o and a cuppachino...

its not good....because.....i sayso....lol..well i have been doing better than any other day.....i drank about 2litres of liquid all togher which isnt bad and i am going to go and skip and walk now....

keep me updates everyone.....i shall be off to comment and excersise...toodles!!!

sorry for not being any help to you guys lately!!! just wait about....few weeks and then christmas is gone and then its a six week skool vacation!!!

sorry i havent updated much..i have been a workaholic...hehe studying and then got work and then my workout...lol..but today is sunday so no skool...always make time for a day like this,,,

well i am going to malaysia in 3weeks with my friends *missing out skool for 2weeks* and so...yea i wanna lose some weight before i go...and so...im doing a fruit fast till then which wont be hard but not easy...if i stay away from food i will survive for yonks...ok well...ANYONE WANNA JOIN A FRUIT VEGIE FAST?? if you are lets support eachother...

I WILL DO IT I CAN I MUST cause i am going on hosl with my friends and no ugly adults....i am turning 15 in feb but....*underage* butbbutbutbtut there are like two older guy friends so....they made an agreement to take me...*they pay* hehe and we will...DANG I DONT KNOW!!!

well i am gunna go around and coment you guys!! love yous!~!

love gracie

i have been depressed once again...i dont know why this is happeding to me....like school work...blah i dont wanna go there...school friends....wait they arent even friends their just people who say they are....and weight i dont know...but i have just been eating little but i dont know how i possible weigh another 4ibs more??? i just dont understand...i think im going to do the FRUIT AND VEGIE DIET again./....anyone up for it...i just....AHHHHHHHHH i dont know....after i get this weight to its normal self i will stop being insane..lol you guys know what i mean.....

hope you guys have a fab time...i have been bs but am here...hehe

love gracie

hey beybeh!!!

well i have really wanted ti get on track again to feel better and to be happier and so i never really eat anymore like i just dont want to cause i know what it does to me...so this was intake for today

INTAKE-

B-fiber drink small mango

l- a cup of a small salad and green tea

D- meal replacement drink

you guys probably dont know what that is the MEAL REPLACEMENT dirnks...well my mum had insisted for me to drink it cause i never eat and never eat all the minerals i need and so its just a drink with protein fibre you know just all those miserals we need...

good thing is its only 80cals per cup and its like a yummy think shake so its filling and good...i usualy drink foods..lol like FIBER DRINK, PROTEIN SHAKE, VEGIE/FRUIT POWDER MIX, AND FOOD REPLACMENT DINK...

i like it better than eating becasue it has all the things i need in a drink and its healther and more weight is to be lost and makes life easier.

i basicly live of them andi dont even BINGE/PURGE anymore....i dont want to...i just dont enjoy sight of food now...which is really good

hope you girls are going great GIVE ME A YEL AND TELL ME HOW YOUR GOING!

love gracie